At the front, like I was blind A nightmare creeps into mind Forthcoming dusk of mankind They'll never more see daylight Killing fast and dying slow Never more the same old son Only slayer without heart has become your integral part Tell me, please, God tell me Tell me ‘bout my life Tell me, well, God tell me Tell me why we fight Mind is dazed, you won't be free A hero you don't want to be The only sin was you were born From this hell you won't return Like the monsters Like the fools Buried there with deadly toys Girls won't ever kiss their boys Broken and alone you stayed Cry for friends for whom you prayed Forever inside your head From this day until your death Faceless body, blue-dead lips A few inches from apocalypse Death everywhere we cannot pass I see it all through tinted glass Filled with pain, I'm full of hate Only flesh for their amusement Just because they wish it all I won't die in this fucking war Save me, please, God save me Save me from this war Like the monsters Like the fools Buried there with deadly toys Girls won't ever kiss their boys Broken and alone you stayed Cry for friends for whom you prayed Forever inside your head From this day until your death Nothing left They all fell Never-ending rain of tears Leaving you with blackened dreams Lonely soul Your scary role What if they all forgot? What if they all lied? Broken and alone you stayed Cry for friends for whom you prayed Forever inside your head From this day until your death

With the misery With the suffering I can't disconnect myself from this life I live in With the injustice And with the falsity I can't deal with this bitter-cruel reality In this body forsaken but longing for freedom In this body paralyzed but trying to move on In this life God denied me and let me live in hell In this cell I'm trapped and held until the judgment day In this body my life is undone In this body a nightmare has come With unhappiness Evil and sadness Is it curse or punishment or mercifulness? With the violence With intolerance In this body imprisoned I question God's presence In this body every cell is fading to schism In this life I reject faith and turn to nihilism In this prison all I’ve done makes no sense no more In this nightmare my perception has locked up the door In this body I'm stuck evermore In this body a new day won't dawn My life story, my last tale Greater good or greater hell No more tears are in my eyes Now it's time to say goodbye No more fear is in my heart In this body Everything's fallen apart In this body Let me now give up my fight In this body, dust to dust Choke this body Choke this body, end it must

My last day has come My time here’s nearly gone Tonight I’m gonna end it all Falling down through the sky I decided to die My mind has become clear and I... I expect the dark and silence of death No hope for afterlife, no promise, no regret What was I living for? What did I dream before? What was I wishing for? Wanted more and more Nothing of that comes Blindness in the eyes I’m still falling underground Why am I not dead yet? No answers in my head Illusions of life and I... I expect the dark and silence of death No hope for afterlife, no promise, no regret What was I living for? What did I dream before? What was I wishing for? Now I dream no more Emptiness and misery Suffering and agony Paradise or damnation Is that it or just the next station? Inner peace you’ll never find The death you wished for is just in your mind That darkness all around swallows you so fight the last fight Did I have high hopes? Did I have great expectations? My body’s just flesh and bones My soul is overfilled with hate and worms in my brain eat my conscience and grief Will I ever be able to sleep? Trapped among the stars A billion human lives and universes born and die I can’t follow the way of light and years that passed away It’s my eternal suicide I expect the dark and silence of death No hope for afterlife, no promise, no regret What was I living for? What did I dream before? What was I wishing for? I don't wish anymore What was I living for? What did I dream before? Is there remorse in my head? Just a bullet in my head The line between life and death Did I have high hopes? Will I ever get rid of the pain? Did I have great expectations? It doesn’t matter after all

There are thoughts deep in my head I would never tell There are feelings I still hide dragging me to hell Where's the way out of it all? Is it just the end? Why must this have happened to me? This life I pretend Endless pain goes through my mind and nothing makes sense No one's hand will calm me down, I doubt the existence Am I here or where am I? I don't really know The last part of sanity has become my foe I have been lost in myself, who can understand? No one's help will save me now, so this is the end Why cannot I not be sober? Why cannot I start all over? Lust is burning me Life is cheating me Death is calling me The end is in my sight Dead I am inside The whole world is a lie I wish I was high

Heavy blow just hit your life Your world has turned upside down Great sorrow in one heartbeat Filled your broken mind All cells in your body strained Boundary between rage and desire melts Balancing on the edge of self-control Diagnosis: Hatred The easiest way to kill the pain Determine the guilty one He can't even imagine Hate names my archenemy All cells in your body strained Boundary between rage and desire melts Balancing on the edge of self-control Diagnosis: Hatred Who are you to tell me? How to live my life Who are you to show me? What is wrong and right Appetite for revenge grows And displaces sense of justice Distorted mind like a puppeteer who pulls the strings to sure disaster What I've done don't bother me I just want revenge What I’ve felt is haunting me Forever estranged While walking to the gallows pole With blood-covered hands Neither innocent nor guilty Was it worth revenge?

I’m experiencing it all again but I don’t want to Through everything I've ever been, through all I’ve known To be born old and dying young Parallel worlds collide At the end of everything At the beginning again I damn thee god, let me go Never free, never thou I reject you, leave me be We’re all cursed at purgatory Living life the same way eternally Infinite dreams and endless nights, thy prophecy Leave me be, I damn thee Never yours, never me I’m a heretic, let me bleed We’re all dazed by destiny So let me stray from the creed At the top of the sea In the depth of the sky At the start of space At the end of all time In the breath of the dead My life turns upside down In life, in death, the beginning of the end Leave me be, I damn thee Never yours, never me Imprisoned in claws of ruthlessness and your lies Jaws of emptiness, this path became my bride To be born old and dying young Parallel worlds collide At the end of everything At the beginning again I damn thee god, let me go Never free, never thou I reject you, leave me be We’re all cursed at purgatory Leave me be, I damn thee Never yours, never me I’m a heretic, let me bleed We’re all dazed by destiny and greed

You walked this way This way to hell and back Yet another long slog back till the end of days You lived this life A life so bittersweet Let's look now to the eyes of fate and face reality You played this game, no difference if once or hundred times You hate it all with all its rules and all ups and downs Searching for truth but the truth is hidden under lies It's time to play once more until it sleeps, until it dies The time has come and it's calling you In your mind you have to choose Time's running out, now it's up to you Faith is no more, there's nothing to lose In the end it's just a dream like a shadow on the wall In the end you’re only human and off the edge you fall In the end it's a lonely way and doesn't matter if you pray In the end you wish for peace but you discover war again In the end it's just a voice you're hearing only in your head In the end it’s just a choice between life and death In the end you are a puppet in this mysterious play In the end you're seeking place to stay at the end of the day In the end it's just a way You'll never reach the sky You may never know Even if you get high There is nowhere to go In the end it's like a secret what we all are looking for In the end it is a life, it's out of your control In the end you're like a kid who pretends to be a man In the end it is a gift, there's no reason to thank In the end it’s all we know and there is nowhere else to go In the end our rise doesn't matter because we always fall In the end we're all the same and in the end we all must play In the end it’s just a game but in this game we have to fail You'll never reach the sky You may never know Even if you get high There is nowhere to go You’ll never win this game No care how hard you play No matter what you give You can just try to live From hell to heaven's door From always to nevermore Back from the sky to the flames of hell In these flames you will burn You'll never reach the sky You may never know Even if you get high There is nowhere to go You’ll never win this game No care how hard you play No matter what you give You can just try to live You'll never reach the sky You may never know truth Even if you get higher There is nothing to choose

I'm digging my grave a hundred yards underground in the dark With my fingers without nails, with my fingers and my dirty thumbs Hands full of soil, tomb made of dust, I feel the worms eating my guts I cannot see, I cannot see, I cannot see, I'm buried alive Buried alive Buried by life Burnout inside - A suicide A long lost trust, lost faith, lost fight Dying alive - Life's just a dream Dying alive - Long needed sleep Dying alive - I feel only pain Peace that never came, that never came I‘m building gallows of the wood, hands of blood, mouth full of mud I‘m building gallows of the wood, the wood of the house, where I lived my life Hanging by a rope of my own hair, like a rat, hood over head I cannot breathe, I cannot breathe, I cannot breathe, I'm dying alive Dead or alive Dying for life Dead I'm inside - A suicide A long lost trust, lost faith, lost fight Dying alive - Life's just a dream Dying alive - Long needed sleep Dying alive - I feel only pain Peace that never came, that never came I’m your nightmare, I’m your life I’m the truth full of lies I’m a lifeboat that sinks down In your sleep you will drown I’m the mirror of your pain I will betray you like Cain who's gone insane, who's gone insane I'm the one for whom you pray I’m the one who makes you pay I'm pulling out the last ace while I'm spitting in your face I’m living your life Dying alive - Life's just a dream I'm almost gone - Dive into the stream Of the life that never was The life that never was Of peace that never came Peace that never came to me

The sun goes up, the sky is pale The shadow's following my way The sun goes down I can't escape I am so happy, I’m so sad I hear an echo in my head Voices of those I used to know So far away, so far away That I cannot hear what they say I cannot live, I cannot die I don't remember who you are I don't remember who I am Is it a dream within a dream? Is that a life that isn't real? Is it you who weaves the lies? Behind your eyes? How to keep going? How not to give up? For a long time my life’s been fucked I'm so worried My faith’s in doubt Torn apart ‘cause All the gods are gone Off the edge I'm thrown It is like sleep but without rest I feel like I'm living dead I only want to be like you Used to be happy, now you're scared I became you and stole your fate Hope's the only thing that’s left You'll never see your face again You have been trapped in an endless well You cannot live, you cannot die You don't remember who you are You don't remember who I am Is it a dream within a dream? Is that a life that isn't real? Is it you who weaves the lies? Behind your eyes? How to keep going? How not to give up? For a long time my life’s been fucked I'm so worried My faith’s in doubt Torn apart ‘cause All the gods are gone Off the edge I'm thrown All the shit I've done In the tears I’ll drown Nothing to save me from this hell No one can tell me who I am Nothing to save me from myself No one can see my face again I'm so worried My faith’s in doubt Torn apart ‘cause All the gods are gone Off the edge I'm thrown All the shit I've done In the tears I’ll drown All the gods are gone I am falling down